I don’t usually do a Song for the Day in my playlist posts but we all need to listen to My Shot from the Hamilton soundtrack right now. Or Do You Hear The People Sing from Les Mis. For obvious reasons.
I really don’t know what to say except that I am completely, utterly devastated by the rise and success of the far right and fascism in the world. I am devastated for women and POC and people who pray to a God other than the Christian one. I am so, so tired of people’s rights being stripped from them by men like Donald Trump who somehow, fuelled by fear and hate, come out on top. I am so tired.
I’m meeting up with my friends from my year abroad this weekend. We’ve met up several times since 2014 when we met, but this time our American friend is gonna be with us. I get the feeling that we’re gonna be several bottles of wine down each and commiserating over Brexit and Trump.
Today I got an email from my MA lecturer that said `I hope translating literature is something you’re still interested in`. You know what, at this point I am so, so tired. The MA stripped so much from me. What remained of my mental health, my passion, my money.. I just replied `I’m taking a break after my MA; hopefully I’ll get my passion back soon` and left it at that. But part of me wants to be like `it was the worst year of my life, fuck you all`, y’know?
Basically guys, adulting is really getting me down. In the words of Tyler Joseph, wish we could turn back time to the good old days when our mamas sang us to sleep, but now we’re stressed out. And etc.
SO, here is a post containing a selection of songs (I managed to cut it down to 12) from my Teen Nostalgia playlist that are always guaranteed to take me back to age 15. Hope you guys enjoy!
- Five Minutes to Midnight by Boys Like Girls.
Such a fun, poppy song that was in my most played until I was about 17. My outstanding memory of this song, however, is on the drive home from seeing Fall Out Boy in 2008 when Boys Like Girls and You Me At Six supported them. We were planning to be all clever and blast Five Minutes to Midnight at 11:55pm, but we were so caught up in post-gig excitement! In fact, I even glanced at the car clock and said “Ooh, it’s five minutes to midnight!” because I was shocked at the time. Idiot, idiot, idiot! We realised what I’d done about 15 minutes later…
- Bring It (Snakes on a Plane) by Cobra Starship.
The amazing intro is made all the better by imagining Samuel L Jackson yelling “I have had it with these motherfucking snakes” over it. This song also includes William Beckett and Travie and was basically a Fuelled by Ramen supergroup smash. It’s so catchy and I still love it now.I will never forgive Gabe Saporta choosing a guy who didn’t know the words to the rap to come onstage over me when I saw them though.
- Hallelujah by Paramore.
This song is so underrated. The whole album formed an integral part of my teens, but this song will almost always make me cry and smile and feel very nostalgic and also kind of free. It makes me think of Autumn winds and old friends and a feeling that I could conquer the world if I could only stop also feeling muffled by everything. My all-time favourite version is on The Final Riot! live album where it fades in from Jeff Buckley’s song of the same name, which gives me goosebumps every time.
- About You Now by Sugababes.
I love the Sugababes. There, I said it. I think they’re an amazing group and I miss the Heidi/Mutya/Keisha dynamic (yeah, I know this one is Heidi/Amelle/Keisha). This song was one I refused to delete from my mp3 player to make room for 15 other songs (remember those days?) because it’s so catchy and lovely. This one definitely makes me feel nostalgic for my teens!
- Homesick at Space Camp by Fall Out Boy.
Come on, you didn’t think this list would be free of them? This song makes me remember feeling young, like the whole world was at my fingertips. It was also (and remains today) a message of reassurance – ‘tonight, the headphones will deliver you the words that I can’t say`. I felt safe in these lyrics. I needed those lyrics. Thank you Pete Wentz. I also always expect Hallelujah to follow directly on from this song when I listen to it now because of my trusty mp3!
- Parallel Worlds by Elliot Minor.
THIS BAND DESERVED MORE SUCCESS. I will maintain this forever. They were so, so good and original in their compositions and THEY DESERVED MORE OK. I mean, the intro to this song is so magical.Their albums are so beautiful. I will forever be 15 when I listen to them!
- Hearts Burst Into Fire by Bullet For My Valentine.
This song reminds me of lying on my bed just listening to Kerrang radio for hours. That era was so special to me because I felt like I was forging a new path for myself. When I downloaded this song, I would listen to it on repeat for ages because I loved Matt Tuck’s voice. Also that riff is incredible.
- Lips Like Morphine by Kill Hannah.
So many of these songs just follow on naturally from each other to me. I got into Kill Hannah thanks to those sessions listening to Kerrang radio, and fell in love with this song and band as a result. Mat Devine has such a poetic way with words, and I had never really heard anything like his voice or sound before and it was absolutely enchanting to me.
- My Last Breath by Evanescence.
This song plus Imaginary are my ultimate favourites from this band, and Fallen is such an important album for me. This song always makes me think of being 14 and of simpler times. It makes me think of a fic and pale trees in a dark wood and feeling important to someone and cared about. It’s so calming for me. Imaginary is a natural follow on for me and this build-up of emotions made me cry when I saw Evanescence live the other year.
- The Only Difference Between Martyrdom and Suicide is the Press Coverage by Panic! At the Disco.
This song reminds me of a 15th birthday party of a girl with whom I’m no longer friends.She, myself, and another two girls that I don’t talk to anymore got sugar-drunk, one of them started playing this on the keyboard, and we sang. At the time it was confirmation that we would all be bffls. Now it makes me nostalgic for those days and it makes me miss the people we used to be.
- Punk Rock Princess by Something Corporate.
This song is so, so good. I remember listening to it and feeling kind of rebellious and kind of wanting to stay invisible forever. It makes me miss being so naive and hopeful. I realise that most of these things have been `it makes me miss being so naive and hopeful` but honestly the person I was at this age feels like a lifetime ago. I don’t recognise her anymore and that makes me really sad.
- Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis.
This song is incredible. It’s filled with emotion and takes me right back to my teens, sitting in a freezing school courtyard in the cold. It was as though my emo-self had been verified by the main-stream music industry, wrapped up in an amazing voice and propelled to the top of the charts. No X Factor winner’s single has ever been the same.
So there you have it! As always, I’ve turned this post into a playlist, which you can listen to here. Just be thankful I didn’t include Here In Your Arms by HelloGoodbye because let’s face it, you’d have it in your head for days and hate me for weeks. Or Shake It by Metro Station for that matter. What would be on your Teen Nostalgia playlist? Let me know in the comments, or make your own post!
I’d just like to take a second to re-plug the Nice Message Chain. We all need nice messages right now, so if you want to join the project, please do.
I really hope you’re all ok out there!